Sojourn into the grateful noise

Elestial Tourmalinated Quartz — Hidden riches revealed.

"There are some days that are so charged with so much emotion and are so special, that all the challenges this life brings and the adventure we embarked upon stands clearly before us, small as it be in the context of world events with no expectations, it just is there." - Marie Foster

The Sum of Everything

The Journey is unfolding again, this time around started 4 years ago, and it's fair to say we have all had challenges. In order for me to move forward I had to do a few things. It's a necessary review before moving forward again.

For me personally, I've learnt so much out of necessity. Covid...stepping up, increasing shifts as an RN in Aged Care whilst trying to maintain my own level of health in a situation that was so filled with fear and pain. Then letting Crystal Apertures go for a while like a distant dream, whilst people at home were being creative, living with the choices that many of us who serve the greater community made.

Dealing with my own self doubt because I listened to the opinions of others that I thought mattered but found I didn't matter to them at all.

Learning how to deal with sarcastic comments from 'friends' when I told them my idea of Crystal Clothing eg. 'so you're a fashionista' or 'yes we all know how special you are'.

The main thing it taught me was that haters don't truly dislike you, they resent themselves because you reflect their aspirations, in fact they hate themselves because the opposite person is a reflection of what they wish to be.

I realised through some serious soul searching, that their opinions are not the make or break all and that everyone has their own agenda and reasons for having them and they have nothing to do with me personally.

Being swamped by ongoing emotional energies from the world, finding myself in a world with massive objectives, aggressive actions, stubbornness, 'I will succeed' they said.

Judgements were made 'Out with the old, in with the new', the deception of mental substance wanting to change their way and more.

I've been feeling it in my heart from some and it hurts sometimes, like an ache, not a physical pain but a pain of yearning that some believe we may not have enough, a despair felt from the world that seems to be squashing the hope of peace with the fear of change.

All I can say is that change is inevitable, either we change or the world changes us.

If it's freedom we want, the only true freedom comes from within but people have to find these things for themselves. In saying that, because I feel it so strongly, I sometimes write about it in a real practical way, with no rhyme.

I've learnt a degree of emotional detachment, not getting caught up in other peoples dramas whilst still understanding and being compassionate like always. I've had to. There came a point where all that faith and trust, service and duty to others, insight and intuition, support and encouragement, mediation and diplomacy took its toll.

Feeling that I had let everyone down because I did not have the energy to listen to the constant whining about how hard their life was, those that had the world in their hands, to do with as they wished and just dropped it because it was too hard, wanting to wipe the slate clean, which can never be done.

Full of secrets, that of what the world did to them. It is very strong in the world and I found myself at a total loss as to what it was exactly that they wanted from this life and why they wanted some of it from me.

I've reached limits of some old stories, I've stopped being treated like a legacy to blame in someone else's story or being treated like an object, there only when they want to whinge sometimes and nothing else.

I've placed family history in a bigger container looking at patterns of attachment, along with self containment vs emotional attachment, Challenging the traditional approach of moving forward, falling in love with the 'problems' and taking steps towards working through them and not just wanting the solution, what shapes our thinking, the inside out and the outside in with discernment to the latter.

What the Crystal Revealed

To listen to the foundation of my heart, to listen to the blessing that my soul was born into and finding space for appreciation of those foundations. In the past the appreciation is for an alternative mother who gave me the gift of Crystals, always there in spirit reminding me of the impermanence of life and to always cherish those special moments, whether you see them as 'good' or 'bad', learn and do something with them, learn to stay and be present, be real, to evolve each day by learning something new, make new special moments and be who you came into this world to be and remain grateful and humble about it all.

So what has this got to do with Crystal Apertures and everything that is on here.. a lot! An appreciation of Nature, Crystals in particular. It is just another facet of me.

Ungrounded Possibilities

I've found the time to do one of the things I love to do, knowing I'm building on a generational life, an obsession with Crystals, building on lightningseeds® and Crystal Apertures and taking the next steps towards Mystic Crystal Revelations®. As you know no one does it alone, those that love me just because, are my support and I can't thank them enough.

This image is of Elestial Tourmalinated Quartz, was taken in a 2cm piece of the overall raw Crystal. These moments are powerful. Powerful moments of poetic disclosure, a meaning that has always been true, becomes visible.

A meaning that is always there becomes perceptible. As if when clouds and fog lift over mountains and you can just see them.

It's not that this moment is more filled with purpose than any other moment. It's that this moment is likely for many of us to evolve and become more consciously aware of it. More consciously aware of the meaning of things, the fate of things. The sense and direction and purpose, the destiny behind it and the reality check of the transformation principle that comes with it.

And so, the question is — what do we do?

We can be despairing and cynical or idealistic but together with each of these, we can hold the tension. There is meaning in what we perceive through darkness, it's fate that survives this reconstruction and purging. It's vision along with surrender.

We may ask, what does destiny have in mind for me?

A better question might be what deeper purpose and meaning that I haven't been able to see, is revealing itself. What part of me is being asked to mature so that a vision can be fulfilled and what must I give up or surrender to be what I am meant to be.

The temptation will be to favour one of the two perspectives and what each offers will be very polarising. Sometimes we make the classic mistake of picking one over the other. Realism vs optimism.

If we don't pick at all and hold the tension — truly hold it, experience it — the more we do, especially with love, care, tenderness, curiosity and humility and learn to bend reality a little, it opens.

There is treasure inside, hidden riches revealed. With the lasting value being a reflection of who you are.

With Gratitude, thank you for reading. The journey continues in Luminous →